Haven’t vented to you in a while. Hope you haven’t forgotten about me. I just need you again. I’m starting to hate life again. Everything was going well, but now, it’s all spiraling down again. I’ve been clean since 12.31.11, but I just wanna cut again. But not only cut, I wanna die too. I wanna do it. I don’t want to live. I’ve become an enemy in my own house. Everyones turning against me. It’s come down to the point where I only have one friend, my best friend. I’m thankful for her. She may not be the best to everyone else, but to me she is. She is perfect, she is amazing, she is mine, my best friend <3 But yeah, she’s all I have and sometimes it comes down on me all at once. I just miss when everything was good. But now my life is shit and I just don’t want to live anymore. I finally figured out how I’m gonna do it, I’m just waiting for the one thing to push me off the edge. Idk when, where, how or why yet, but I know that if I keep feeling this way, I’ll do it. So I guess this is bye….for now.
Thank you for letting me vent to you tumblr, and sorry that I haven’t been attentive to you.